Musings

Showing Up Is My Brave

The school year has begun and it has been a whirlwind!  My favorite part of the year is learning about my kids and how I can help them be successful.  This is also the hardest part of the year because some kids don’t make it easy.  When they say there is no tired like teacher tired, that isn’t a lie.  The beginning of the school year reminds me showing up can be brave.

Showing Up

I am an introvert, a type 5 on the enneagram, so I’m one of the most introverty of introverts.  That doesn’t mean I don’t like people.  On the contrary, I love people, they just make me tired.  Every day at school I am with little people who require a good bit of my attention and energy.  These little people are some of my favorite people in the world, but at the end of the day I am spent.  Hear my heart, I love my job and the people I work with at school.  Teaching is a rewarding profession. I share my time with like-minded people who want what’s best for children.  I give my all at work and I love it.  If I’m telling the truth though, the most important people in my life, my husband and children, don’t get the best part of me.  My family gets the version of me who doesn’t want to be needed for a few minutes.  All because I tied shoes, gave hugs, and tried to instill confidence for my new little people.  So it’s important for me to come home after school and take a minute to collect myself so I can show up for my people.  Showing up for my people may look like helping with homework or listening to whatever drama happened in the 6th grade.  Sometimes I just need to be present when I want to check out.  Showing up is important.

Why Showing Up Is a BIG Deal

I said before I’m an enneagram type 5.  If you don’t know anything about the enneagram there are several resources I can recommend.  Here is a link to a free online quiz to learn your type.  The enneagram has been a tool to help me understand some of the patterns or ruts I get stuck in.  I have learned that I’m not afraid of a lot of things.  I mean, spiders freak me out, and I’m not a big fan of enclosed spaces.  However, the biggest fear I have is being incapable or insufficient.  I want to be enough and have enough energy for the people I care about.   I’ve learned during times like the beginning of the school year I have a tendency to withdraw.  I don’t even realize I’m withdrawing until someone calls me out.  It’s my 5-ness coming out.  So, when I make the effort to show up it’s a big deal.

Being Brave

In Acts 2:46-47 it says, “Every day they devoted themselves to meeting together in the temple complex, and broke bread from house to house. They ate their food with a joyful and humble attitude, praising God and having favor with all the people. And every day the Lord added to them those who were being saved.”  The New Testament church had it right.  The community they built was diverse.  I’m sure there were even a few introverts in the group.  They relied on each other, broke bread together, they did life together.  God intended the church to work that way.  He desires for us to be in community.  This can be hard because we have thousands of Facebook friends, but we haven’t sat down with a friend face to face in ages.  It requires us to be real and honest, sharing what’s going on in our lives with the people around us.  Keeping up the facade is taking all of our energy, and we don’t have anything left.  That’s why being brave for me looks like showing up even when I don’t feel like I can.  The people in my life deserve the effort.

He Is Everything I Need

Philippians 4:19 says, “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”  Paul is telling the church at Philippi that because they gave to support his ministry that God would supply every need of the church according to God’s riches.  So how does that apply to us showing up in the lives of the people around us?  I believe that when we are investing in the lives of people and showing up when that’s all you feel you can do He will supply you wth the energy, the words, and the love you need. It’s not always perfect.  Showing up after a long week at work isn’t easy, but for the church to be what God intended, we have to try.  Our connections with people are so vital to the work God is doing in your sphere of influence.  So, how are you showing up for the people in your life?  How are you being brave?

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